愛做夢的我～Val

地點: 淡水老街的Starbucks
時間: 5.30 p.m.

另一個好地方... 雖然咖啡比較貴, 但是還蠻多位子的... 呵呵... 還有沒有我小電腦的誘惑啦... 但自己會不自覺地想寫東西... 慘啦...

我點了杯Toffee Nut Latte --> 為了Christmas所推出的系列吧... 還有多一個 Creme Brulee... so French... 哈~

Okay, have to get back doing my report due this Thursday... 否則東西做不出來會被追殺吧... :P

mata ne

我一直遲遲不想寫... 一半是因為前面欠了一堆補寫的事件...

但我還是想寫這篇吧, in memory of a dear friend.

我在6號的晚上接到 Kai 的 email, 那標題寫著:~ dunno if u know
我打開了信件便讀到一件我無法相信的事實

Kai在 email 裡面簡單地說Ming已經過世了
不曉得我是否知道這消息便寫給我
信件的整體內容如下~
Hi val,
Don't know if you know yet...that Ming passed on last wed.
Suddenly thought of you this am and thought you will want to know.
Hope all is well and you are creating a spectacular life in Taiwan!

Lots love

我讀後的第一反應... 我不敢相信我眼睛所看到的事實
我還很希望我所讀到的不是真的因為Ming means alot to me.
It's true that I have no idea how and what to react, but I know I'll miss her lots.

I first met Ming, surname Lui (雷) when I attended Asiaworks. I attended the Trainings when I was 22, so that makes it about 4 years ago. I don't exactly remember exactly how and why we met but in the Asiaworks Family, we all kinda knew each other especially LPs (Leadership Programme Graduates) that follows after. Ming is in LP10, her brother Khang and my friend Laiyin is in LP11 and I am in LP12. Those were the days when graduates often go back to Asiaworks to help out and I often bump into Ming. I also worked with her when she captained Basic. I have to say I learned alot from her. The way she take on the world, the love she showers on Aurora, the belief that she alone can bring Aurora up and so much more. The sheer presence of her calms me when I am nervous during a Training. It seems that if she's around I have nothing to fear, Ming will take care of everything. Scenes of the activities we did together, trainings we created, guest event nights, etc etc flashed passed and with every memory my heart pains more.

我在隔天又寫了封email給Kai... asking her what happened
She replied saying that Ming had cancer last year, had a relapse in Perth and came home.
這件事發生得太突然了... 感覺上心口好像活生生地被挖了個洞
我在收到回覆的當晚哭了
我已經不知道要怎麼 react 了...
哭, 對我來說是個 release 吧
把憋在心裡的痛與悲傷發洩出來

在這種時候我覺得一個人在外很痛苦...
無法找人聆聽的痛苦
寂寞一人的痛苦

我會記得Ming所說的 ~ keep living spectacularly and also know how to ask for support, express emotions & treat our body with love & respect...

I will miss u greatly dearest MING, though gone a part of u lives in me forever n I thank u for living your life spectacularly...

睡前一小寫... 呵呵~
應該是要去睡覺啦~ 因為早上要起床啊~ 哈哈~
我們系所辦的宿營就在這兩天啦...
遲來的總究還是會發生... 我在說什麼啦...
應該是太累了...
去睡囉...
我最後還是沒補之前的東西
慢慢等吧~
哈~

第一次接觸這首歌... 應該是看MTV台吧...
放進我的Playing List, 現在正播放這首歌的當兒
有點想寫一下...

這首歌的名字: You're So Beautiful by James Blunt
我最有印象的就是開頭的~ My Life is Brilliant, My Love is Pure
後來慢慢聽時, 覺得歌詞表達的情緒簡單兼複雜

歌詞描述了主人翁在個偶然的情況下遇見一位女孩
那女孩的身邊已有另一位
但那並不阻止主人翁喜歡上她
他們四目交接似乎在其中達到了某種共識
但那男生確實知道這段小插曲不會有任何結果

歌詞:
My life is brilliant, my love is pure
I saw an angel, of that I'm sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose no sleep on that
Cos I've got a plan

Chrous:
You're Beautiful (x2)
You're Beautiful, it's true
I saw your face, in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
Cos I'll never be with you

Yes she caught my eye, as we walked on by
She could see from my face that I was flying high
And I don't think that I'll see her again
But we shared a moment that will last to the end (Chorus)

La~

You're Beautiful (x2)
You're Beautiful, it's true
There must be an angel, with a smile on her face
When she thought up that I should be with you
But it's time to face the truthI will never be with you

之前看到朋友也因為某人唱了一小段而有感觸...
哈~ 感觸怎麼那麼愛來啊... 她後來好像寫了不少
我會覺得歌裡面的情緒有所不同是因為裡面的用詞
歌詞都在述說那女生天使般地漂亮矛盾的是, 這只是所謂的"一見鍾情"
毫無瓜葛的二人怎麼會有結果呢
最狠的在歌曲的最後面~

But it's time to face the truth
該是面對現實的時候了
I will never be with you
我不會和你在一起

忽然讓我想起了一句廣告詞~「不在乎天長地久, 只在乎...」相信大家都很熟悉吧
寫到這裡... 也不知道要寫什麼了...

付上這專輯的照片哦~


去進行冬眠計畫啦~晚安各位~